I don’t
consider myself a “control freak” but as I am approaching my imminent wisdom
teeth removal I am beginning to rethink that label. Tomorrow I am getting three
teeth surgically removed and I am dreading it. Why though? People have this
done all the time. You can go on Youtube and watch videos of people still loopy
after they had this surgery. So why does this terrify me? Theoretically (and I
pray it’s the case), I won’t feel a thing. I have tattoos and piercings that
were probably more uncomfortable to receive. But, I realized, I was in control
of those situations. Sure someone else was holding the needle, but I was saying
what I wanted, where I wanted it, and, ultimately, I could stop the whole
process if I wanted to. I was in control.
I
understand that labels do not truly matter but as I was hashing all these
thoughts out, I asked myself “how does faith play into this?” Now, not
necessarily how it plays into my wisdom teeth removal (though I am putting A
LOT of faith in those doctors), but how does faith and this want for control
work together? I know that as human beings this is something we struggle with.
Why else would there be some many references to “Jesus taking the wheel?” We
all want control but the beauty of faith is that we don’t need to be in
control. We have a loving God who is always beside us, before us, within us. To
continue the cliche and slightly annoying metaphor, we just have to ask God to
take the wheel. This is obviously something that I am not good at. But God
knows that. In Jeremiah Gad says, “for I know the plans I have for you….”
I feel like that God is talking directly to me through that verse. God KNOWS
the plans that God has for me, plans that give me hope and a future. So I can work
on relinquishing control.
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